“I put my adventure shoes on, I was going to discover me.”
Now, that I was focusing on improving my life, I was slowly starting to put things in order. I was having more time for myself. I let all the people who didn’t serve me well out of my life. In this silence and loneliness, I was going to rest my head. I was taking this time for a long recovery because I was very broken.
In this recovery time of mine, I was meditating often. I started reading many books. I was reading two books in one week. I read many great authors From Eckhart Tolle to Robin Sharma, Gabrielle Bernstein to Dr.Wayne. All of these books helped me to see the beauty of our journeys. I could feel the harmonic motion now.
Starting this recovery was a wise decision that I’ve made for myself. During this calm time, I got to know myself a little better. Discovery to my soul unrevealed many colors of me. Now, I was understanding my qualities and how much I can achieve if I put my mind into it.
This discovery has led me to my true purpose. I’ve realized that I want to create for humanity. I want my job to allow me to do remarkable things for humanity. I dream of a job where I am joyful and creating for people. Because,I also want to take care of my spirit while I am doing my job and providing for my family. My body is going to die one day but my spirit won’t. I choose to heal my spirit through this body I was given. My body gives me life, life gives experience to my spirit. Therefore, I am grateful for my life. I am ready to find my heaven on earth.
I get it. Some days, they are not as bright, as others. Some days, fear falls into our hearts like fire. My mother describes that feeling as three cows sitting right on her chest. I still have those fear moments here and there but I don’t have it for every single thing now. I used to. However, even in those days, I learned to jump out of the bed. Because getting up from the bed was getting me closer to my dreams.
This spirit of mine, turned out to be an explorer. She turned out to be smart, hard-worker, and believer. I was hiding all my precious feelings inside me, to be normal, to be accepted. I don’t even remember the name of the person who I was trying to gain acceptance from.
Then why did I hide the real me?
Because I was scared to be a “loser”. I wanted to have it all. I wanted to be accepted and be normal. I was ok to live for others authorization. I held my spirit hostage in my body. If I didn’t surrender and accept myself in the first place, how could I let me out?
Now , I focus mostly on being a good person to myself and others. I am in comfort knowing that the rest will reveal to me with ease.
There is a magic in wanting to be a good person.
Open your heart and let the miracles flow.